2010年6月9日星期三 '
Who I am?...
I think I am a elusive people,so nobody can read my mind even see through my mental...Even I myself also don't understand myself...Actually which side is the real me?...I would like to know it...Sometimes I was lively;sometimes I was sentimental;sometimes I was gentle and quiet and sometimes I was warm-hearted...Nobody know my true nature,including myself...I'm always think that I know myself very completely,but actually that's not the true...I don't know myself...I want to know and find the way actually what type of people I am...I set a test about myself at facebook...But all of my friend also cannot get the mark more than 40%...Really I was very disappointed...I think that my friends know me so much,know what I was thinking,but actually they're not...Nobody can read my mind even see through my mental...I am always lonely that I have...
2010年6月6日星期日 '
Confused...
I feel very tired and dissapointed for myself...Why I cannot do my best?...Why I also must let others feel dissaponted for me?...Why I still cannot get a good result even though I'm very hardworking?...I put my everything to do it,but...at the final...I still can't...Why?...Who can tell me why?...Who can take me out of this confusion?...I just want to do my best,but why that's very hard for me?...Really I'm very failure?...Really I am a loser doomed?...I also want to try my best until it is succeed...But...Finally,I found that I can't...I cannot handle it...I can't do it perfectly...I always cannot exceed them...Even if I pay double efforts,I still can't...Why?...I don't want like that...I want to exceed them and myself...
2010年6月4日星期五 '
Why?..
I don't know...Why the exam was passed by,but...I still can't relax myself...There have many trouble things want to solved by me...I can't handle it...I really give up at this time...Even if how hardworking i am,my exam result still bad...Still can't reach my target...My target is 8A...But now I think I just have 2 or 3 A only...You know I used my whole time to do the revision for the history?...Review,review,and review again...Review until I can learn by heart...But...How about now?...That's useless!!!!I'm still useless that i am!Nothing can i do...I really very hardworking to study and review the history...I really have paid my heart to do it...I really want to do my best until it is succeed...But...At the final...I know that actually I can't...I am so hard to study it, stay up late every day, that's for what?!That's for me can get good result in the exam...But...now...It doesn't matter already...It already reminds me that I'm still a loser although how hardworking i am...I still cannot do it...I'm very hurt...TT
